Forgiveness: The Gateway to Grace & Freedom

Lately, my heart has been sitting heavy with one recurring thought: Forgiveness

It keeps echoing, like a quiet prayer in my mind. And I can't help but ask myself-how is forgiveness connected to spiritual freedom in our human realm? What role does it really play in our lives?

Let's be honest. We are flawed, imperfect people walking this earth. We bruise easily, especially when hurt comes from those we once held close. The betrayal-subtle or severe-often grows into something deeper: an emotional grudge. I've felt that. Maybe you have too. 

You think you've moved on. You've created distance, maybe you've even mastered the art of silence. But deep down the peace doesn't sit right. Something still lingers-bitterness, pain, distrust.

And then I think of the divine-of God. The way He welcomes us back every single time we stray. We keep sinning, keep falling. But still, He forgives. He stretches out His loving arms, unashamed to embrace us, even when we bring the dirt of disobedience with us. There is no pride in His love. Only grace.

In this context, it reminds me of the proverb often recited during early morning school assembly "Thought of the day" - 'To err is human, to forgive Divine' And today I understand what depth that thought of the day holds. So why is it hard for us to do the same? 

I've battled many flaws-anger, pride, arrogance-and slowly learning to let go of them. But forgiveness? That's where I stumble. It doesn't come easy. Not even after years. Not even after healing in other areas. 

And that's the hard truth I carry: I've moved on from people, but not from the wounds they've left behind. And because I haven't truly forgiven, peace continues to elude me. 

Moving on and forgiving are not the same. You can live life forward and still feel haunted by backward emotions. Even nostalgia becomes bitter when heart hasn't healed. 

Today I choose to begin something intentional. A quiet but powerful act. 

I will write down the names of everyone I still carry grudge against. I will pray for them, one by one. I may never reach out and that's okay. But I'll release them to God-and release myself from the prison I've stayed far too long. Because God says,

"Before you come to worship me, forgive your brother...then come to me with an open heart, and I will forgive your sins just as you forgive those who sinned against you" (my understanding of His Word)

And in His word it is written:

"Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you."-Ephesians 4:32(NIV)

"Then Peter came to Jesus and asked 'Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? upto seven times?' Jesus answered, 'I tell you, not seven times, but seventy times seven.'"-Matthew 18:21-22(NIV)

So, I begin there.

One name at a time, One prayer at a time. One step closer to freedom.

He Walked into My story

 Welcome, Dear Soul.

If you've arrived here by chance, longing, or quiet hope - Know this is a safe space. A quiet room where broken hearts breathe, and stories soaked in grace unfold. I'm so glad you're here. 

November 2023 was a time when I thought I could no longer find happiness. The year ended in pain, self-doubts, and the weight of guilt, shame and loneliness because I believed no one ever cared about people they once called their own. I felt lost, broken and more a topic of gossip and disgust. I wanted to be invisible. The pain made me cry every now and then and I stopped focusing on everyday chores just sitting by myself on the bed soaking the pillows with tears and embarrassment. I loathed myself but something in me called out to God, kneeling on the ground clinging to the Bible(that's how I thought I could get Him to answer me) - Why me??........And that's exactly when He walked into my story. 

Not with a thunder or force - but with stillness. In the quiet when the world wasn't watching. Jesus answered me - "Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6 

This is where He answered me directly. I got amazed and afraid at the same time. It felt like I have been vaining unnecessarily while He had my back all the time. He did not shame me. He did not ask me to prove anything. He just embraced me with all the mess, held my wounds and whispered that I was loved - Just as I was. 

That was the beginning of a journey that changed my Life. I did not become perfect but began to walk again - slowly, gently - Traced by Grace. 

This Blog is my journal. My testimony. My heart.

Here you'll read about:

• My real experiences with Christ
• The struggles I still face
• The verses that carried me
• The prayers I prayed in the dark

If you are reading this, maybe you are also walking through your own valley. Maybe you are searching, doubting or waiting for someone to see you. 

Let me tell you what I now know for sure; You are not forgotten. You are not too far, And grace-that quiet, beautiful grace - is still chasing YOU. 

Thank you for arriving here.

Whether by a click, a whisper, or divine design - I believe you're not here by accident. May these words meet you where you are. And may Grace trace its way into your heart, like it did mine.